This is actual madness but its SO PRETTY! i want it..

ok wait, its not even pretty tbh. but its shiney and omononnmnmm!!!! and so gooooood!
(not my video)

FUCK YOU OS4

seems pety but i have been trying to install OS 4 for 5/6 hours now, and my patience is through.
its still only looks like this.. fuck fuck fuck
everything is shit. fuck that.
only appealing thing right now sounds like pain and numbness. i want to scream..
i guess you could say im feeling pretty fucking fed up with my life.

Shoot me now.

Boreedddness-summer project

this is not mine, thiswas found on the internet by my friend. :) ( I TAKE NO CREDIT FOR THIS.)
bored? get a journal, doo this for funtimes..
ssimilar to my wreck this journal.. by the same person mostprobably.

1. Go for a walk. Draw or list things you find on the the sidewalk.
   
   2. Write a letter to yourself in the future.
2. 
   3. Buy something inexpensive as a symbol for your need to create, (new
   pen, a tea cup, journal). Use it everyday.
   
   4. Draw your dinner.
   
   5. Find a piece of poetry you respond to. Rewrite it and glue it into
   your journal.
   
   6. Glue an envelope into your journal. For one week collect items
   you find on the street.
   
   7. Expose yourself to a new artist, (go to a gallery, or in a book.)
   Write about what moves you about it.
   
   8. Find a photo of a person you do not know. Write a brief bio about
   them.
   
   9. Spend a day drawing only red things.
   10. Draw your bike.
   
   11. Make a list of things you buy in the next week.
   
   12. Make a map of everywhere you went in one day.
   
   13. Draw a map of the creases on your hand, (knuckles, palm)
   
   14. Trace your footsteps with chalk.
   
   15. Record an overheard conversation.
   
   16. Trace the path of the moon in relation to where you live.
   
   17. Go to a paint store. Collect 'chips' of all your favorite colors.
   
   18. Draw your favorite tree.
   
   19. Take 15 minutes to eat an orange.
   
   20. Write a haiku.
   
   21. Hang upside down for five minutes.
   
   22. Hang found objects from tree branches.
   
   23. Make a puppet.
   
   24. Create an outdoor room from things you find in nature.
   
   25. Read a book in one day.
   
   26. Illustrate your grocery list.
   
   27. Read a story out loud to a friend.
   
   28. Write a letter to someone you admire.
   
   29. Study the face of someone you do not like.
   
   30. Make a meal based on a color theme. (i.e. all white).
   
   31. Creat a museum of very small things.
   
   32. List the smells in your neighborhood.
   
   33. List 100 uses for a tin can.
   
   34. Fill an entire page in your jounral with small circles. Color
   them in.
   
   35. Give away something you love.
   
   36. Choose an object, draw the side you can't see.
   
   37. List all of the places you've ever lived.
   
   38. Describe your favourite room in detail.
   
   39. Write about your relationship with your washing machine.
   
   40. Draw all of the things in your purse/bag.
   
   41. Make a mini book based on the theme, "my grocery list".
   
   42. Create a character based on someone you know. Write a list of
   personality traits.
   
   43. Recall your favorite childhood game.
   
   44. Put postcards of art pieces/painting on the inside of your kitchen
   cupboard doors, so you can see them everyday (but not become deaf to
   them.)
   
   45. Draw the same object every day for a week.
   
   46. Write in your journal using a different medium (brush & ink,
   charcoal, old typewriter, crayons, fat markers.
   
   47. Draw the individual items of your favorite outfit.
   
   48. Make a useful item using only paper & tape.
   
   49. Research a celebration or ritual from another culture.
   
   50. Do a temporary art installation using a pad of post it notes & a
   pen.
   
   51. Draw a map of your favorite sitting spots in your town/city.
   (photocopy it and give it to someone you like.)
   
   52. Record all of the sounds you hear in the course of one hours.
   
   53. Using a grid, collect various textures from magazine and play
   them off of each other.
   
   54. Cut out all media for one day. Write about the effects.
   
   55. Make pencil rubbings of six different surfaces.
   
   56. Draw your garbage.
   
   57. Do a morning collage.
   
   58. List your ten most important things, (not including animals or
   people.)
   
   59. List ten things you would like to do every day.
   
   60. Glue a photo of yourself as a child into your journal.
   
   61. Trasform some garbage.
   
   62. Write an entry in your journal in really LARGE letters.
   
   63. Collect some 'flat' things in nature (leaves, flowers). Glue or
   tape them into your journal.
   
   64. Physically alter a page. (i.e. cut a hole, pour tea on it, burn
   it, fold it, etc.)
   
   65. Find several color combinations you respond to in public. Document
   them using swatches, write where you found them.
   
   66. Write a journal entry describing something "secret". Cut it up
   into several pieces and glue them back in scrambled.
   
   67. Record descriptions or definitions of subjects or words you are
   interested in, found in encyclopedias or dictionaries.
   
   68. Draw the outline of an object without looking at the page.
   (contour drawing).
   
   69. What were you thinking just now? write it down.
   
   70. Do nothing.
   
   71. Write a list of ten things you could to do. Do the last thing on
   the list.
   
   72. Create an image using dots.
   
   73. Do 3 drawings at different speeds.
   
   74. Put a small object in your left pocket (or in a bag), Put your
   left hand in the pocket. Draw it by feel.
   
   75. Create a graph documenting or measuring something in your life.
   
   76. Draw the sun.
   
   77. Create instructions for a simple everyday task.
   
   78. Make prints using food. (fruit and vegetables cut in half, fish,
   etc.)
   
   79. Find a photo. Alter it by drawing over it.
   
   80. Write a letter using an unconventional medium.
   
   81. Draw one object for twenty minutes.
   
   82. Combine two activities that have not been combined before.
   
   83. Write about your day in an encyclopedic fashion. (i.e. organize by
   subject.)
   
   84. Write a list of all the things you do to escape.
   
   85. Cut a random shape out of several layers of a magazine. Make a
   collage out of the results.
   
   86. Write an entry in code.
   
   87. Make a painting using tools from the bathroom.
   
   88. Work with a medium that is subtractive.
   
   89. Write about or draw some of the doors in your life.
   
   90. Make a postcard that has some kind of activity on it.
   
   91. Divise a journal entry using "layers".
   
   92. Divise an entry using "layers".
   
   93. Write your own definition of one of the following concepts,
   sitting, waiting, sleeping (without using the actual word.)
   
   94. List 10 of your habits.
   
   95. Illustrate the concept of "simplicity".
   

Weez XX

Fuck

i think i have anger issues. the tiniest things stress me out and build up and then i just lash out for the most unreasonable reasons.

its not fair to people. i havnt felt anger like this for a while.
i need to calm the fuck down again or i'll lose everyone again.

is this a sign that i am no longer managing to cope?

Im listening to the Contours While eating Chicken nuggets :)

ah! my exams are over! and i have a week off from school. i flunked my exam, but i dont really care right now. i can worry about it later!
and yes, i am blogging! for once! god i have missed not having anything better to do with my time. i literally dont have to do anything! i havnt felt so responsibility free since last summer with the massive GCSE study leave break.
and i am feeling bare happy right now. maybe its that i am no longer trying to cram rubbish i dont understand into my brain, maybe its cos my Wreck this Journal just came with my next day delivery from amazon! and its abserlutely pouring :D i forgot how happy rain can make me sometimes. i dont need to listen to music. i am just enjoying the sound it makes as it patters on my roof :)
oh dear, it sounds like i've floated off to lala land..

yah. it was half term last week, was a welcome break. pissed around the whole week tho, COMPLETE REVISION FAIL HAha..!
had a lovely drunken cotch on friday afternoon that involved paddling pools and singsongs, then i went to Gorden Ramsays Resturant with my family as a late birthday dinner for me and my sister.. was actually too awesum!
yeah.. im going to blog about food im afraid!
when we first got there they offered us avacardo and lobster canapes.. they were like in mini ice cream cones.. but i like neither of these so refused this and they offered me just a avacardo one haha they were nice waiters hah
then, pesto and ricotta between two potato chips..which is butters also but i dont like pesto..
so at this point i was like... actualfuckthissuckswhyamihereimnotposhenoughtobeherehelp

and then they served us this appitiser and i saw the caviar and prawnyness and was like fuck off im not eating that. but parents ecouraged me and the yellow liquid was like tomato soup.. really really good.. i left all the nasty crap though..
aand then the starters wasw an option between pigs trotters and tuna.. i had the pig, sounds discusting i know, but omg looked amazing and tasted even better..

JUST LOOK HOW BUFF YAH!
then i had beef cooked to fucking perfection which potato and ox cheek..yeah i ate ox cheek. i did refuse to eat that too initally..but it was buff.
got so caught up in excitement that i forgot to take a photo..
then pudding, i ordered a "granny smith parfit with blackberry foam and honeycomb sheets with cider ice cream" sound noming or what?
then they served us a pineapple and coconut soup, i like neither of these as well but it was so delicious! and it had popping candy in it xD


this is my epic desert, and FUCK IT WAS SO FUCKING BUFF LIKE THE BUFFEST EVER OMG NO JOKE...

rest of the famalams pudding.

ermmm im bored. to be continued!

Quagmire Hate Brian Rant

"Okay I'll tell you. You are the worst person I know. You constantly
hit on your best friends wife. The man pays for your food and recused
you from certain death and this is how you repay him. And to add
insult to injury you deficate all over his yard. You pay for nothing.
You always say ooh I'll get you later but later never comes. And what
really bothers me. You pretend like your this deep guy who loves women
for their souls. Yeah. I date bimbos but at least I admit it. I don't
buy them a copy of catcher in the rye and then lecture them with a
seventh grade interpritation about Holden corfield was some profound
interlectual. He wasn't! He was a spoiled bratt and that's why you
like him so much. He's you. God you're pretenious. And you deloud
yourself by thinking you're some great writer even though you're
terrible. You know I should have known cheryl tegs didn't write me
that note. She would have known there's no a in the word definate. And
what I think I hate most about you is your text book liberal agenda.
How we should legalise pot, man. How big business is crushig the
underclass. How homelessness is the biggest tradgity in American. Well
what have you done to help? I work down at the soup kithen brian.
Never seen you down there! You wanna help? Grab a ladle!
Oh and by the way. Driving a prius doesn't make you Jesus Christ!
Oh wait! You don't believe in Jesus Christ or any religion for that matter because
religion is for idiots. Well who the hell are you to talk down to
anyone? You failed college twice! Which isn't nearly as bad as your
failure as a father. How is that son of yours you never see? But you
know what. I could forgive that. All of it. If you weren't such a
bore. I mean that's the worst of it, Brian. You just a big sad
alcoholic bore. Sigh. Well I'll see you Brian. Thanks for the *bleep*
steak."

video not mine!

thanks for dictation by Ashley :)

i love this rant cos its all true.. also whenever have you heard Quagmire speak so passionately about anything that isn't to do with women..
ahah this is why i should use tumblr instead.