confession?

Im impatient, things must come faster, i crave attention to an extend, yet attempt it (in a hopefully discrete way)
i hate being ignored, dont ignore me. i hate being left out. being left out is like the bain of my life. it bugs me to no measuable extent. i have an incredibly short attention span. I get very stressed very easily.the only way to ease it is to live half conicously.. throw half an eye at things.
since year 10 or so i feel i have only put in half the effort, only pulled my weight to a certain extent.
i am just living slyly on the edge waiting for someone to identifty my half heartedness. im yet to be discovered.
I get verry nervous very easily, like so nervous i feel sick, its stupid. have to tell your self to calm the fuck down.
I hate speaking aloud at school when the teachers pick on you. like a constant fear of being humiliated.from all my teachers, most of my life, the comments are "she's very quiet, she should try and participate in the lesson more"
i always attempt to pretend to do the work, i dont do it though, i bunk homeworks all the time and all my school life i've only had about 1 actual detention, i manage to snake away from teachers anger some how. something to do with being 5'2 and shy in class, no?
well it works anyway.
i bare grudges, i doont forgive but i also forgive very easily. im likely to backstab, if i didnt, how else would i keep this frame of innocence..
im quiet alot of the time, dont think it is bacause i have nothing to say, yet if you know me well i can become rather loud.
i find it hard to switch off.
i have volient tendencies..yeaah. im not a nice person.

FUCK YOU OS4

seems pety but i have been trying to install OS 4 for 5/6 hours now, and my patience is through.
its still only looks like this.. fuck fuck fuck
everything is shit. fuck that.
only appealing thing right now sounds like pain and numbness. i want to scream..
i guess you could say im feeling pretty fucking fed up with my life.

Shoot me now.

Quagmire Hate Brian Rant

"Okay I'll tell you. You are the worst person I know. You constantly
hit on your best friends wife. The man pays for your food and recused
you from certain death and this is how you repay him. And to add
insult to injury you deficate all over his yard. You pay for nothing.
You always say ooh I'll get you later but later never comes. And what
really bothers me. You pretend like your this deep guy who loves women
for their souls. Yeah. I date bimbos but at least I admit it. I don't
buy them a copy of catcher in the rye and then lecture them with a
seventh grade interpritation about Holden corfield was some profound
interlectual. He wasn't! He was a spoiled bratt and that's why you
like him so much. He's you. God you're pretenious. And you deloud
yourself by thinking you're some great writer even though you're
terrible. You know I should have known cheryl tegs didn't write me
that note. She would have known there's no a in the word definate. And
what I think I hate most about you is your text book liberal agenda.
How we should legalise pot, man. How big business is crushig the
underclass. How homelessness is the biggest tradgity in American. Well
what have you done to help? I work down at the soup kithen brian.
Never seen you down there! You wanna help? Grab a ladle!
Oh and by the way. Driving a prius doesn't make you Jesus Christ!
Oh wait! You don't believe in Jesus Christ or any religion for that matter because
religion is for idiots. Well who the hell are you to talk down to
anyone? You failed college twice! Which isn't nearly as bad as your
failure as a father. How is that son of yours you never see? But you
know what. I could forgive that. All of it. If you weren't such a
bore. I mean that's the worst of it, Brian. You just a big sad
alcoholic bore. Sigh. Well I'll see you Brian. Thanks for the *bleep*
steak."

video not mine!

thanks for dictation by Ashley :)

i love this rant cos its all true.. also whenever have you heard Quagmire speak so passionately about anything that isn't to do with women..
ahah this is why i should use tumblr instead.