the current way things are

At the moment staying up till 4/4.30am every night. its pretty fucking exhausting. i only have my self to blame though, every holiday i have i always think, this will be the holiday when i start to use my time wisely. this is when i will finally be sorted and get a decent night's sleep on the sunday night/monday morning homework rush. but no. nada. its only going to get worse. my concerntration comes in irregular gulps - thats actually what its like.
i never can concerntrate. i feel pretty enthusiastic about art at the moment, i started 3 double pages today, about the most productive i've ever been in my expiremental book.
I want to be doing art right now. i dont want to end up with last minute fuck up like last year. i dont want to be taken aside again and be scrutinised with a concerned look on their faces.
Miss sharmer, although i dislike her, talked to me about my ideas yesterday and im surprised to say it triggered more than my first orginal idea. progress woo!
but cant be doing artright now coz i have a fucking business test tomorrow and im going to flop.
UGH. art motivation please stick around, Pleaseee

Pack up Bittfcch

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dzY0-I4Gq5w
Happy happy song.kinda.
this is what i result to keeping me working at early hours of the morning.
i had an empathy (..is that the right word?) the other day, which i soon will blog about.
i wonder how much any of this effects my life.

what's 2 + 2 ?

ooh thats a toughiee
what, thats like 10?

Questions..?

not cool

If I could write you a song,
and make you fall in love,
I would already have you up under my arm.
I used to pull all my tricks,
I hope that you like this.
but you probably won't,
you think you're cooler than me.

you got designer shades,
just to hide your face and
you wear them around like
you're cooler than me.
and you never say hey,
or remember my name.
its probably cuz,
you think you're cooler than me.

Questions..?

SAatchi

yeah man.. saatchi galleryyyy
saatchi!

confession?

Im impatient, things must come faster, i crave attention to an extend, yet attempt it (in a hopefully discrete way)
i hate being ignored, dont ignore me. i hate being left out. being left out is like the bain of my life. it bugs me to no measuable extent. i have an incredibly short attention span. I get very stressed very easily.the only way to ease it is to live half conicously.. throw half an eye at things.
since year 10 or so i feel i have only put in half the effort, only pulled my weight to a certain extent.
i am just living slyly on the edge waiting for someone to identifty my half heartedness. im yet to be discovered.
I get verry nervous very easily, like so nervous i feel sick, its stupid. have to tell your self to calm the fuck down.
I hate speaking aloud at school when the teachers pick on you. like a constant fear of being humiliated.from all my teachers, most of my life, the comments are "she's very quiet, she should try and participate in the lesson more"
i always attempt to pretend to do the work, i dont do it though, i bunk homeworks all the time and all my school life i've only had about 1 actual detention, i manage to snake away from teachers anger some how. something to do with being 5'2 and shy in class, no?
well it works anyway.
i bare grudges, i doont forgive but i also forgive very easily. im likely to backstab, if i didnt, how else would i keep this frame of innocence..
im quiet alot of the time, dont think it is bacause i have nothing to say, yet if you know me well i can become rather loud.
i find it hard to switch off.
i have volient tendencies..yeaah. im not a nice person.

Chocolate Digestives are addictive

so, its been awhile. been away, been argueing,been eating, been not eating at all.. meh, that was my summer.
oh, and im forgetting, best part of the holiday was digestives.. no i joke. reading festival muthaafuckkka!!
i cant wait for next year xDDD met a few nice people, but mostly the it was the best just camping with all my friends and the fail barbeques and morning trips to tesco, drinking before midday, everyday, having my drunk/areana buddie everyday. theres a great campiing spirit, like everyone is filled with a special energy. amongst everyone hot boxing there tents, k-holes,stolen strongbow and 24 crates for only a tenner.
and thats not even getting to the music. was fabulouso!
nice to be able to spend time with everyione again that i had missed.
Reading Festival 2010, you blew my mind :))

FEstival Checklist
many hoodies (that remain dry and dont get soaked on the first day)
toliet paper
anarak
wellies
baby wipes
tent
sleeping bag
blanket/towel
a hat
thermals!! (ok maybe not)
deodrant!
slummy trousers
very select amount of food..( its heavy to carry and much easier if you buy it there)
more than 1 pair of proper shoes (dont just bring wellies and flipflops like a wally like me)
small bottle of water.. but buy 2 litre bottles once there,
Money
the tickets
a small bag suitable to take into the arena (big enough to fit money, backy, skins, etc, dispoasable camera..phone) and anarak clipped on to it!
disposable camerass
a shit phone, seriously guys quit bringing your iphones to reading, its complete madness.
moisturiser
suncream (on the first day they all claimed i was mad to bring it, by the next day they were all asking to borrow some)
barbeques!
toothbrush,
toothpaste
bare minimals of make-up
protection
other kinds of lady protection..
empty bin liners
dry shampoo
torchh
hmmm... and then like norm stuff that you need to bring. REMEBER LIPBALM!

bye boitchhh
Love
Weez
xx